round 2

[Neleh "SourPuss" Dennis]

at the start of tribal council

we lost that challenge... and we were kicking ass too!

shambo is too good. see i had a plan, that i really thought would work. shambo said she was drinking, last night, and i figured staying up all night she'd be asleep in the morning. so i was going to get up early after staying up fairly late, and come back on and take off shambo once she finally went to bed. this would have made me look like a pretty big challenge threat, so i figured i'd off-set it by screwing up on spencer and not fully taking him out. then i would say, right early i nthe morning after i took shambo off her pole and finished up spence, "well now i gotta go to work unexpectedly. not going to be staying up that late on a monday night anymore." and i figured this would wi nthe challenge and off-set my threat-level.

however, that did not work since as soon as i left shawn came on and totally destroyed us. meanwhile shambo was still there so even if we'd been there too, we would have had no chance. shambo was just too on her game.


so now we go to our first tribal council. good thing the hosts are so hot, it makes a little less upsetting.


plus if everything goes as it should this visit to tribal council will only make us stronger. it can only be beneficial as long as the tribe acts like just that - a tribe. otherwise one of the good players will be screwed and so will the rest of amirante.

it should, by all rights, be monica or michelle that goes tonight. they're not here. especially michelle. monica is new so maybe she will be helpful. it should be michelle.

sugar already said last night that if we lose we'll just vote one of them.


brian seems to like me and be pretty good as far as tribe spirit goes. i haven't gotten to talk to matty yet really but i messaged him and explained where i stood. that i wanted to off michelle or monica just not sure which one, and the reason i am thinking that is because sugar said it's best to vote off the inactive players first.

i asked brian this too and let mikey know not to vote either way untill we're all o nthe same page about whether it will be monica or michelle.


so tonight should go smoothly. i can't see why they'd get rid of me or anyone else that is actually playing, but stranger things have happened. this tribal council should be all about trimming the fat... and, of course, getting an eyeful of the sexy sexy hosts!!!


and maybe myself or mikey b. will get sent to mystery island. of course with my luck i'd probably get a penalty vote against me. if i did get sent though i'd pick something and i'd take it because i'm pretty sure one penalty vote in this tribal council would not hurt me. but, like i said, stranger things have happened.



if everything goes well tonight, i plan on solidifying something with one of the people on this tribe. one, for now. i am thinking sugar but she worries me. she seems like a social butterfly, she seems very good at this and very confident like maybe she is too popular... it's dangerous picking someone to make a solid alliance with because so many people come into these games with pre-formed alliances (something i've never done... well, i got mikey b here but that's one person and it was a last minute thing to invite my friend, just to fill up the game and get going. i actually didn't think mikey would be very into the game but i was gladly mistaken.) see... if i start something with sugar and she's already got a stronger allegiance with other people, i'd be walking myself very slowly to my grave. i've done this enough in the past.

but then just cause she seems very easy to get along with and popular and social and all that, doesn't mean she is. who knows, maybe brian or matty are more social. atleast with sugar she came in (i believe) before the hosts asked for advertising to be done. everyone after that request from the hosts needs to be looked at very suspiciously, 'cause the chances are much higher with them that they came in with an alliance (because of being asked by someone else to join).

so i guess i will take a very long look at when people signed up, whether they've played in the series before... how many posts they've made, how often they come online... things like that. and if i'm still here and everything goes as it should, then i will make my decision about who i will pursue right after this.


and i also need to figure out a good way of doing it. after all, once i decide who i will pursue, i don't want to be diretly the one who began the alliance. i kind of want it to be that person's idea. and more than anything, i need whoever it is to want mikey b. to be a part of whatever agreement is made. and since i know mikey b and am closer with him than anyone else, it's absolutely imperative that i not be the one to mention his name. whoever i get with needs to want mikey b, themselves, and needs to suggest bringing them in, themselves. this will ensure that they always feel like both myself and mikey b. would choose them over eachother, should that decision ever come up. this is important to stave off any doubts that could arise. because doubts, even when unfounded, are a very powerful thing.


so... good luck to me. i hate tribal council. well i also love tribal council for the nerves and all that but mostly i hate it. so, again, it's a GOOD thing y'all are hot hosts! ... 28 players means a LOT of these things that i mostly hate. lol.

[Neleh "SourPuss" Dennis]

annoyances thus far *half-way through tribal council*

i am still annoyed at my seperation from the people on the other island, especially betty. the idea originally was to go to final 2 with betty if possible... not only did we get seperated, before that she seemed disinterested in talking. now she is interested and i personalyl don't feel right. i read the rules three times, nothing in there about NOT talking to people from other tribes or the other island but the fact remains the same, i just don't feel right doing it. i really want to enquire about her alliance that she says "will keep her safe" but all i can bring myself to do is say "cool cool, keep it up!" and stuff like that.

which brings me to jonathan. holy fuck jonathan. i thought i was bad.

apparently i'm "on the good side" by talking to him before the tribal selection. apparently i'm going to make third as long as i stick by him, but he will never betray melinda... or whatever. he is with ian to final 4 but he will betray that, for me, as long as i stick on his side. like what the fuck is that?

there are currently 26 players over two different islands, and i autmatically have third by sticking with him and his little brigade? nice... freakin' ideals.

it annoys me that everyday he comes on and messages me to check up. i realize it's because i played the dumb beginner card and he sees great weakness in that and hell, i am a good person to fuck over. a perfect vote when the time comes because he can feel safe that i'm smart enough to just barely drag my ass to that point but not smart enough to stand up and walk once i get there. but still... it's annoying having to feed him dumb bullshit generalities and make it seem as if it's my idea of breakthough information everyday. and watch him laugh at my dumbass-ness. lol.

i got him not to vote out penny. just because i'm one of the few people who enjoy nessa's company. she's fuckey in the head. shit that should be one of my annoyances... that every single game except one that i've ever played has involved nessa... lol, nah, i've been the single-most determining factor in her departure from each of those. kinda funny that without trying to become a part in that island at all i was the one to tell jonathan not to target her and to target kim instead. and that when she asked me today i said i was mostly behind it and that i'd try once more. used to be that i'd target her first round given the oppurtunity. actually i'd create the oppurtunity. lol.


and then tyson... annoys me that he hasn't TRIED to talk to me since the selection. he told me about an alliance i could be part of before we even got tribes... all i remember was silas and one of the girls... i think kelly? maybe? lol... and he said he was roughly with brendan but that brendan was kind of a sinking ship... and then amber went to brendan and flirted and then that got back to tyson and tyson mentioned amber to me... was starting to work out nicely as something i could set up with my own interests in mind without actually setting it up. but wateva. shit happened on that front.


it annoys me now... a LOT that i can't talk to matty on AIM. and brian messaged me last night on the board to get my AIM, to get in contact with me on AIM (as well as sugar and mikey and PROBABLY everyone else)... and i gave him my AIM name and he hasn't used it yet. i need to talk to my tribe mates in order to get i ntheir heads. i am afraid to even try with sugar... it feels almost safer to just let her ACTUALLY for real call the shots and just ask questions and be a helpful servant sort of character. i am afraid of sugar. i don't even have a good reason why, just like a feeling i get from her. she is super welcoming and awesome and i see her as being a good ally for a great deal of time but something about her frightens me... a certain unpredictability, i guess. but i can't predict anyone at this point, i just feel like i'll never be able to with her. who knows. a lot of the time i've felt that way about people and it's turned out they are the oens i should've alligned with. lol... survivor can be a fuckin real bitch that way... the doubts, like i previously mentioned.

i'm also annoyed at my internet connection being down. fuckin dialup is sucking. but i don't wanna dwell o nthat cause it's a really really shitty problem i've been having.





i gotta figure out a way to sneak myself and mikey b. in somewhere safe... that i can rely o nwithout feeling too many doubts. cause it's the doubts that will make my over-playing thing act up. it's always the doubts.



have fun, dear diary.

[Neleh "SourPuss" Dennis]

oh and by the way... i messaged matty and brian about the vote, and let sugar know. she and i would rather vote michelle because she's been inactive longer, since monica is new. that was my suggestio nbut she totally agrees and even looked up how long michelle has been inactive for.

matty got back to me so far saying monica should go first. so i told him i will talk to sugar about it since she had said michelle but it really doesn't matter which one.

and mikey b. is a little upset at me for fucking up on the challenge after "he" got right into it and is wondering who of the two inactives to vote out. i already explained to him how to vote, now he's just waiting on a confirmation of who and when to do it.




and that's the state of the process at which i am right now.



again, hopefully everything goes well.