round 6

[Neleh "SourPuss" Dennis]

during the immunity challenge

the game has gotten very... interesting? i just realized, starting with the big giant tribal council and ending with having sent mikey to mystery island, that the competition in this game may be a bit more than i can handle... or more than i've handled before. the people here seem... skilled. the amirante days sort of lulled me into a false sense of security. that sense of security... is gone.

i thought it was difficult to save mikey, when he was on tyson's team. especially when suddenly it wasn't shawn and spencer that were up for elimination with tyson and mikey... it got switched to matty and brian and i was able to deal with it at the last second and still make sure that mikey and tyson were safe... i thought that was a pretty good feat. i thought i was doing good after that but now...

okay here's where i stand. i sent mikey to exile, right... he asked everyone except matty from our island that has been to exile what they chose, and everyone but amber said the truth. amber said she picked hut 3, when in fact she picked hut 6. makes me think she has something, there, hidden... and then the sugar thing about exile which i've already discussed in enough detail. she is STILL saying she doesnt know what she got/she doesn't think she got anything. i haven't asked her still i've just been like talking abt what other people have and then she says that she wishes we'd have gone to exile and that she didn't get anything. but that's clearly a lie. brendan says to watch out for her, too, as he has played a previous game with her and knows how popular and sneaky she is.

all right so... i feel like i need to either find out what amber and sugar got or begin taking steps to ensure that they will be gone before me. and soon. so i got mikey to message spence letting him know in case he was unaware, that him and spence were about to be voted out at that big tribal council. make sure they doubt shambo and amber as they should.

and i let sugar know about amber's possible idol or extra vote or nullify a vote or whatever. not that she needs to know because i'm sure she alreayd does but wateva... it's too make it seem like i'm still sharing everything i know with sugar. i'm not, though, not anymore.

and i am going to go make a plan with jonathan. i need to believe he has christa. i know i have mikey, jon, and tyson. that's five together. shambo said she wanted spence out but since the new arrivals of jon and christa, she may be changing her mind. she seems to be. i personally would love to off amber right now while she doesn't expect it. and i will if i get the chance but the thing is... if sugar is in fact with me, which i am doubting at the moment, it would blow that right to hell. unless i like mentioned it to her, said something like "should we get rid of amber or jus trust her?" and if she says yes then... well then there's a good chance that amber would use the idol if she had one. lol...

see i don't think i could tell sugar at all if i am not doing the obvious and voting either spence or jon. and if they decide to vote spence, i will go with it, but if they decide to vote jon i obviously need to do something weird to take control. spence down it gives me 5 against 4... that would be perfect.

the problem with this is sugar. i have no idea where her head is at, like... for real. i do know she was good friends with natalie before natalie went inactive. and at that time she was telling me she knew nobody o nthe tribe so she is clearly just as sneaky as me... i just don't know if she is up to as much as i am. she may be sneaky but i also know she is playing other games and hosting one as well, maybe her heart just isn't into this one and that's why she seems so shady, ya know?


i'm thinking if they go for jon i'll go for amber. so long as spence gets back to mikey with something positive. i mean, right now he'd prolly choose to just go with shambo and amber even after hearing that they were against him last round... and still are thinking of getting rid of him, soon if not right now. but after amber is gone, spence will see that yes it is in fact safer to side with mikey. because clearly, then, mikey would be the one in control. well as he sees it. others would see me as being in control. and that's okay because this is the fork i nthe road... if they decide to do what i'm okay with, themselves, and take out spence then i'll just play it semi-low-key some more but now, knowing how shady eveyrhting is over here and that sugar and amber are clearly out for something higher than the tribe, something more than us, i need to make sure i don't get put in a situation where i am outnumbered. i can't rely on them. i'd love to be able to continue supplementing my real alliance with their help but i cannot allow them to become my only hope or i will be very likely screwed.


so... we'll see... i need to hear back from mikey after he hears back from spence, i need to talk to jon to know our possibilities, and i need to confirm with tyso nthat he's in it for us and not for amber or shambo. or spence and shawn.

and then i'll get back to this confessional when i figure out more.






and just for clarification, right now i am working on getting shambo to say, herself, that she wants spencer gone. it would make it easier for now to just do what she wants. if she wants what i want.

[Neleh "SourPuss" Dennis]

during tribal council

all right so things changed. i had like... literally a break-down of decision making skills there last night.

okay so i was getting really worried about amber and sugar, right? so i tell jon i'd like to get rid of amber or sugar, preferably amber first...

then he says this stuff to me about sugar having told someone he knew that she wasn't realyl with me and all this and well... everything i'd heard abt sugar so far from like brendan and stuff and then all the vagueness in answering me and how she hardly seemed to talk about the game much... well, so i said maybe sugar instead. it took like literally an hour after the challenge was done for basically everyone to be like "yes, sugar, now, let's do it."

so then i got htinking... fuck, that was easy, she's not a threat. and then i learn that her mystery item was actualyl nothing good, and that she prolly didn't know what exactly it was, like she'd been saying... and then i found out how many games she was actualyl i nright now, and that with the fact that she's hosting too... and how everyone jumped at getting her out...

it just didn't seem like the right move, anymore.


meanwhile amber still had some msytery thing, and still has a lot of power. so... later on i changed my mind back to amber...

it's been a mind-fuck trying to get everyone scrambled together... and then mikey lost his power to vote. and i fucked up and sent tyson and jon a message from me when trish was logged in. oh trish, by the way, is my friend... mikey. so that was all fuckey and i had to explain that and now atleast two people know that mikey and i are friends in real life and these two times of sneding mikey to exile because i can't trust anyone else is not helping. at all...


and now the people that are on my side, if they ARE, have to be annoyed at my shitty decision making skills that i displayed there. back and forth and every way possible.


and now everyone has heard stuff from me. i mean, jeez. amber and shambo and shawn and spence were all on board to vote sugar and i couldn't take it back with them. tried to change to spencer or tyson and then even jon but tye got stuck o nvoting sugar as soon as i said it. i regret letting tem in on it... i mean at the moment i was sure i was voting sugar and it would have been damn well unanimous, it looked like... but then...

and i don't even know if they're going to do what i asked now. or if they ever were but especially now after all the confusion.


i realyl wanted to take down a threat while i had immunity so that if anything got traced back to me it would be okay... i mean, immediately okay, maybe not later.


but i am feeling very doubtful now that amber will go. maybe even niether amber or sugar will go and i just showed what a major player and liar and backstabber i am...


that sucks. i really think my time after this is going to be extremely limited. and i think i'm going to lose my record of no worse than final 6... i don't even think i'll make jusry after the horrible display last night.


but you never know... maybe i'm blowing it out of proportion.



if everything goes right and amber feels safe and gets the five votes from jon, christa, tyson, myself and sugar that she is supposed to get, that i have been told she'll get... then it will leave shambo and shawn and spence after me. hard. which would be okay because mikey would be able to vote next time, possibly...


see this could be good i nthat it clearly defines alliances and if amber goes and the people voting with me feel the same way as i do then... i would be o nthe side that comes out with the majority after the line i nthe sand has been drawn. which would be good.


but now... there is no doubt about it. i am not fading in. i am not playing a low key game. las night... quite honestly... shot my entire strategy coming in straight to hell.



atleast i have immunity so i can be here to see the aftermath. if neither amber nor sugar goes, i am screwed.


if sugar goes, i should still be okay because of mikey... if he doesn't take another bad thing at mystery island. lol.


but right now, after seeing how easy it woulod be to get rid of sugar... APPARENTLY, i am a huge liar and i'm not saying that everyone else i nthe game is not lying to me right now because it is more than possible but APPARENTLY... right now, i really want sugar to stay i nthe game.


i just hope... it is atleast sugar if not amber because then people were atleast voting the way they said they'd vote.


but... hey... there will be 9 votes and the way i have it counted is 4 on sugar and 5 on amber so lets just... hold our breathe and hope.